The end of the worst year of my life,
never had so much heartache and striff.
All from the people who i held dear,
girlfriends and roomates cut my throat from ear to ear.
My ego and trust in people thrown out the window,
never had i been so deceived by so many people.
Shame on me for falling in love with you,
when everyone always said it was to good to be tru.
Against the grain has always been the path i choose,
but that path led me down a dead end road.. Closed.
Getting back on track is not as easy as going in reverse,
the one way train of life doesnt allow u to back trach,just change course.
Traveling with my eyes closed i probably missed many opportunites,
waiting on the past to rewind and so i can rewrite history.
Who did i think he was, what kinda power did i think i had over my life,
why did i think i was special, what made me think my back was stronger than that knife.
This new year i will bring in alone.. just me in my zone.
Most people resolve to be nicer, well mines is gonna have to be the opposite. do for me and do for self, cant nobody make me happerier than me right>
Man this has been a shit year. Lost my job, lost my spot, just lost a lot. Its a lot of nut ass decisions I wish I wud have never even considered cause boy them decisions were the worst I've ever made. I learcned a lot about a lot though and mistakes are the hands that mold our character and must us the individuals we are. I finally realized its time to grow the hell up cause people gonna be people. And no matter how much u lend yourself people never change. Selfishness is a plague. Period. But anyways just know even when it didn't seem like it, I was always in your corner always. I hated the way shit turned out. This shit mad me mad everytime I thought about it. But I'm always here for ya bruh. This year I'm gonna do this shit right. Get all my shit back and do what I do best. Happy new years my nig.
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