Wednesday, September 29, 2010

define you love



Love: affectionate concern for the well-being of others; a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep affection, as for a parent, child, or friend. sexual passion or desire.

Love aint nothing but a word to most people.

Said when u spend more than 5 days a week,
talking more than 5 hours aday,
buying gifts for 5 a month,
or vacationing with 5 times a year.

Affectionate concern for the well being of others, definition #1.

When someone well being is affected by your actions and u choose to do it anyway, that is not love.

When you can see their pain, hear their cry's, feel their saddness, taste their tears, and smell their fears but you do you anyway, thats not love.

When you make a mistake, like all people do, but dont try to fix it, make up for it or prove yourself again, thats not love.

When you dont have the respect to consider their feeling even if you have moved on, thats not love.

When you cant forgive someone who regrets their faults, give them a chance to make it right, thats not love

Love is waiting patiently for you to get back on track...

Love is being there for you even when you make BIG mistakes...

Love is NEVER leaving them alone to deal with pain...

Love is fight for what you want, win or lose

Love is grinding through the rocky patches and sailing through the good times...

Love is that thought about that special someone everyday when u dont see them...

Love is hard, love is tuff, love is scary, love is ruff,

Love is happy, love is smiles, love is life, love is GOD,

Love is never ending and forever

Love is like the lotto... you got to BOTH be IN it to win it

Gotta be InLove to win with Love

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Yet another sad love blog. Days after our ex anniversary day she gets a new BF. It wasnt enough of a slap of what she said to me on the day, the guy she chose to be with, or her non regard for my well being during the short 4 months we been apart. Some people sure do move on fast. Fast past caring about the friends we use to have, fast past the reason why we broke up in the first place, fast past acting like u gave a fuck about me ever since u can retweet all they shit talk about me. I guess the easyiest way around the guilt is to turn it to hate. But a rebound guy will never be a score, he is the punishment for your past mistakes and your motivation to fix them. I wonder if you ego will keep you from coming back to me with an apology. I wonder if your new friends will take your side when he fucks up just like every other nigga in the circle. I wonder when u realize he aint me will you just stay cause u dont wanna be wrong. I wonder when you feel that emptyness when u get ur pharm D, house with a yard, your big suv, and u still not complete will u think of me. You aint never cut off a friend, better yet a bestfriend, but u doing it now to me of all people. When u look n the mirror i wonder what you see, cause i kno it not what we saw when u was depressed about life and i told u what i saw in you. You let people beneath you change you, pull you down to they level. You kick it with a bum wit a kid, niggas who dont have a stable place to stay, all the girls take care of there niggas, a nigga who got cheated on but yet did the same thing to somebody else. All things u hate lol out of your own mouth. Karma is a bitch and it never forgets a face. This may be my punishment for some of my past actions but i have learned my leson.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

9-23-06/10



There are about a million reason why I could tell you that I love this girl. Most importantly, nobody has ever mad me feel as important, needed, and loved as she has. I have spent and gave her my last, anything she wanted i would find a way to get, and the first, last and most frequent thought in my mind were about her. I loved seeing her everyday, kissing her everynight and doing it again everymorning. Everything i did was for her and to make her happy. I would have givin my life for her with a smile.
Now things are different.... for what reason I dont kno. What I did, i couldnt tell you. Feels like somebody died and i wanna go to so i can still be with them. Everything happens for a reason, so i say a prayer... "God grant me the serenity,to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference". Everyone says if it is meant to be then it will be, if you know in your heart u did all u could even if u messed up, then it will be alright cause u will be able to sleep at night with a clear heart. But as stated before in a blog Broken Hearts dont sleep. I hate the fact that she hates me now. Some say its just the frustrations of the mistakes made during the relationship. I we could only make it through this, we would be so much strong. Im down like the niggas on 300, but i cant win this fight solo.
In the end I lost this battle but ill win the war. If i was this happy with her, the woman i fall in love with to marry gonna be a GREAT feeling. If its her or not, GOD is in control and HE wont steer me wrong.